Why won't God heal me?

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Why won't God heal me? When I was about three or four, I went to the doctor with my mom and my baby brother. While my mom was holding my brother, I was standing on this little stepstool. My brother grabs my hair like this. My mom turns and I fall off the stool and break my leg. Now, my leg healed, but because I broke my leg, while the other one kept growing, this one was shorter than the other, leading me to get scoliosis in my back, which gives me pretty consistent lower back pain. Now, I've prayed for God to heal it. I've gone to chiropractors. I put things in my shoes to try to level me out, but nothing seems to work. So, why won't God heal me? Jesus healed people that were blind, deaf, dead. So, is something wrong with me? Well, when we look in the Bible, there's somebody who met Jesus and did not get healed. Why? Let's see. This guy's name is Paul and he said, "To keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me, but he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.'" But, does it have to be this way? Could I just be healed and not become conceited? When I first had that thought, God reminded me of something he said in scripture, "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." And honestly, I also still think about the illnesses that are a little bit more visible. You remember the lepers that had skin disease? People didn't want to touch them, they called them unclean. God healed them. For me, I would get these bumps that would appear on my lips whenever I'd get sick or stressed. I remember being in elementary school, it turned from one to something that had covered the entire bottom half of my face. I refused to go to school. I was so embarrassed. How could that point people to God? Well, first, every time I got it, I'd say, "God, please take this away from me. Please help me." And it really did bring me closer to him. But, then I also noticed something. As I got further in life, whenever I'd get these visible cold sores, I started to see it like Paul, something sent from Satan to torment me. And yes, I asked God to take it away, but more so, I said, "God, give me the strength to get through this." Because if the enemy is throwing this at me, there's something that he must be trying to distract me from that could be a huge win for the kingdom of God. For example, I got a massive cold sore right before Christmas Eve when I was asked to preach one year. So, when I realized, "Oh, this is the enemy." it gave me a different position. Like, "Oh, no, you're not going to do this. I know your tricks now. I'm not going to back down because God is going to get us through this." And every time I took that approach, I saw a miracle happen. That day, people gave their life to Christ. That guy, Paul, he took on the same perspective. "Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, and hardships, and persecutions, and difficulties, for when I am weak, then I am strong." Now, it was hard for me to believe in the beginning. But, after reading testimonies in the Bible like Joseph, when the enemy threw attack after attack after attack, Joseph said, "You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives." What if what we're experiencing now, God will use to produce the saving of many lives? It doesn't mean we stop praying for healing, but even if he doesn't heal us, God is still good and we can know that he will use it for good. How's God use something you walk through? I'm praying for you today, friends. God bless.